Hello

Its gonna be a hell of a few months to look fowards too. I had to table in the Student Union today and didnt realize how crazy it was all day, so many clubs so many pportunites. It was refreshing minus the fact we were outside and it was 33 fucking degrees with lke 7 mph winds, WTF!! I was ready to go to school in Boston or NY but im in Tally!! COME THE FUCK ON!! While chillin and sitting i saw a picture of a guy free falling and i was like no fucking way....so i joined the Skydiving Club. :-D Gonna be intense!!

My business is to create. It doesnt matter what :-)

You can add whatever this means to me, who knows you could be right :-)

 I go home today and i think back to when i was first leaving Miami, a young naive, eager 18 year old ready to live the college life. Booze, parties, no parents, sex, and drugs. For my first semester i achieved all those tings. I made new friends, experimented with new substances(nothing to extreme believe me.) and made new friendships that really wont last. There are 3 or 4 guys that i do see myself keeping in touch with but, for the most, they are just acquaintances as i pass through yet another school. I wanna keep writing but ive run out of time, no worries ill finish this off tomorrow. BTW...IM COMING HOME BITCHES!!!

LOL yes i blasted my pecs just a tad bit baby. muah! There will be cuco time tonight!!

So yea heres my plight, after talking it over with diana(she provided the obvious choice) i decided that changing my major would be a lot of work and seeing that getting A's isnt my strong suit in any academic field i am at a loss. On one side i wanna travel the world and interact with people and if possible make a difference but at the same time i have this burning desire to create and to profit off of my work. So although i would be required to do this:
ACG 2021 (3) Introduction to Financial Accounting
ACG 2071 (3) Introduction to Managerial Accounting
CGS 2100 (3) Microcomputer Applications for Business
ECO 2013 (3) Principles of Macroeconomics
ECO 2023 (3) Principles of Microeconomics
MAC 2233 (3) Calculus for Business and Non-Physical Sciences
STA 2023 (3) Business Statistics

While for International Affairs I don't have any requirements but to broaden my mind. I dont know man, i can do the work and everything but i dont know if i can do it up here especially all the math involved(my best math tutor is not here :-( ) so yea any feedback would be useful and no fru fru nice stuff. Let me know what you would do in my situation pretty please.
 

Plainly stated I'm Lost, I am a whirlwind of emotion with which there is no end.
A maelstrom of misplaced fury bottled up in a barren world.

Plainly stated I'm Confused, I am a newborn whose lungs expand with his first breath to unleash a cry.
A thundering clang that exclaims "WHAT IS THIS PLACE!!" so bold that it courses through the doctors veins.

Plainly stated I'm Love, I am bursting from without and within, a medium to the emotions of my soul.
Emotions that have taken a toll not familiar to me for such a long time, and inspired the sing song rhyme at the end of this line.

Plainly stated I'm Insomina, I am every thought that eats away at my peace.
My mind a cataclysm of thoughts and my dreams a safe haven for worry.

Plainly stated I'm Tired, I am bored with the everyday and sitting through.
A pendulum in my life going forward many times but traveling the same distance back for every step.

Plainly stated I'm Ashamed, I am angry with these thoughts that I have allowed to seep into me.
The stone cold that i tried to keep for so long seems to be giving way to liquid fire a lava of emotion, spewing from my deepest deep.

Plainly stated I'm Me, I am the last of a dying family primed for greatness but afraid to step into it.
A child in the middle of adulthood, petulant to the end over the desire to live for the fun or live for life.


Your not supposed to understand how i feel, just read and tell me what you think. No criticisms please seeing as i dont quite understand what im feeling.(It would anger me if you critized the uncontrollable mess i have in me right now.)

Enjoy i did try something a little new with the poem structure but the line breaks dont achieve what i want, but then again(to throw some more emo into it) i dont know what i want.

Te amo eres mi vida...enough said :-)

Im tired and have soccer practice at 7pm tonight, ugh but on the brightside i see my baby in 3 days! Muahaha may i be ready for the onslaught of kisses that awaits me!

the subject basically sums it up 5 more days until my baby :-). I love her sooo much she doesnt even know!

This week sucked royal culo, i didnt do aswell on my bio test as i should have and that my fault for being overzealous on my comprehension of the material. But whatever i have three tests to go and i should be ok with those three so alas a smile beams across my face. We won our soccer game and it was awsome, i got to play and did very very well. I even got a few head rubs and a high five which is a great improvement from weeks prior, who knows ill be starting soon enough. Next week we play Alpha Epsilon Pi who last year took all campus and made a great impression on the FSU IM sports world, hopefully we have what it takes to beat em.( i think we do :-D). Tonight i went to Le Pub and did an awsome job of not getting kicked out and instead saw others get kicked out. I dont exactly have the money to be hitting the bars like I used to but, it was my good friend Joe Pierce's bday and i felt obligated to see him get drunk proper since he took good care of me last semester. Any who its down to a week before i go home and get to hold my beautiful woman in my arms and give her tons of kisses. No need to say i am very ESITED!! Well thats a cap of my week, its very late and im pretty inebriated so i am going to call it a night and hit the sack, Cuquita give me a call tomorrow and it doesnt matter if u think im sleeping or not, just call me :-)   MUAH-SOTE!

well i got home from the house an hour ago and well im tired as hell but wait i cant go to bed, all-nighter here i come. I might be being a little over studious but i REALLY need straight A's this semester. Heres to scholarship

Some drunk fuck hit my car...nuff said im sure u can imagine how i feel. AND i have to go to my least favorite spot in the world, Gainesville for some stupid fraternity thing...i just wanna go home fuck meeeeeeee!.

So we just got thoroughly thrashed tonight by the boy loving Sigma Chi team and i couldnt feel worse. Its not just the dismal performance in the biting cold thats got me down ive been down all day. Diana even noticed it wen i webcam'd briefly with her and well i couldnt muster a smile and its odd for me. I just feel horrible like im struggling to keep up in every aspect of my life right now. Financially speaking I dont have a job and these 700 dollars a semester suck serious ass. Physically i havent been to the gym in 2 weeks which is ridiculous and im losing definition luckily i havent began gaining weight but it wont last long seeing that im not eating aswell as i should be. Mentally i don"t feel as sharp as i have been in the past i guess i miss my fabled English class where i truly excel but alas i don't have that to fall back on. I dunno man this isnt like me to whine like a little girl about stuff but..OH yea and fucking dance marathon FUCK U! I love the children I'm doing it for but 250 dollars in 3 days come the fuck on! Next time tell me about it ahead of time not 5 days before the deadline is through(sorry Leighton but u dropped the ball on this one) To recap, i feel shitty, we got our asses handed to us by Suck the Guy(Sigma Chi for those who aren't savvy with semantics and word sound manipulation) and i miss diana and wish she was with me right now to soothe me. Alright lets internalize this again and go take a shower. Thanks for lending an ear, or eye in this case, and listening to my problems. Nite All.

Hey guys well I'm doing this thing called Dance Marathon and its for the Children's Miracle Network. This is a charity for sick kids and I would really appreciate your help on this, if your interested on making a donation please click this link http://dancemarathon.fsu.edu/Home.html go to donate now, click "sponsor someone" and type in my name, Michael Tavera, and donate. Again it would make my life a lot easier as this is a big philanthropy event thanks guys.

Ello poppits, i am le exhausted always but alas there is some thing amiss within me and i cant put my finger on it. Could it be school? Could it be my belly? Could it be my distance from Diana? Hell could it be that i am getting sick? I hope its not getting sick because i have a lot of ground to make up after last semester and that would definitely be the last thing i need. But yes i am still alive after a Testy week lol. Srry for the pun i had 2 tests this week, one was easy and the other not so much. Who woulda guessed that a philosophy test would be so tricky. Not only was it tricky but i completely choked and stared at the paper as if it was tie dyed so i scribbled some jargon and prayed to w/e the hell i thought God was and turned it in. Next i went to dine at Suwanee and had me some waffle fries and a tuna wrap. I was craving that wrap so badly, it sure hit the spot though. My second class was cancelled so i have taken the liberty to spend the rest of my day talking to Diana...surprise surprise :-D. But alas very soon i must go for yet another night of man flirting and it sucks because my buddy Andrew cant take his bid because of the financial aspect of being in a fraternity. He will be missed since all the guys really liked him and have been asking about him. Ahh well it happens on the bright side WE BEAT DELT!! Mike had a great game and although i didnt get to play(which sucked) next game will kick ass and i kno i shall play. Well ill see u all later adios muchachos.

First game wish us luck. GO FIJI!!

OMG THEY MISSED THE KICK AND WE GOT THE BALL ON THE COIN TOSS!!!! GO PACKERS!!

    Soooo yes for the next few posts i will continue,how joo say, bitching about the weather because well...im a puss wen it comes to cold. So i was again awoken by the angelic voice of my baby and her Oyé Morena ringtone i have for her. Took me a minute to realize where the fuck i was and thats wen i saw my prisonesque white blocks that adorn my walls aka thats what my walls are made of. I digress, so diana calls me and makes me feel all warm and mushy inside so i decide to open my eyes and get my bearings, meanwhile diana is being her usual cute self and describing the fast paced action in le dorm parking lot, complete with every color mustangs and even an erection causing Ducatti Monster..in black*nuts on self. So after the call i passed the fuck out again lol i kno i kno kinda counter productive but hey i like it wen she calls me :-P. So after my nap i tossed back and forth between going to philosophy on the other side of campus and by the time i decided to stay in bed i was sitting behind my friend Stoppi in class, maybe one day ill win one of my internal battles. Class was interesting apparently but this is what i was told i deeply interested in the 5 kinds of whiskey that Stoppi was telling me about so class wasnt a complete waste. After that i spent hmmm 3.75 hours or so watching my Faerie Queen's locuras and staring into those beautiful deep brown eyes of hers that i love so much before i had to go to Ancient and Medieval Civilizations. In class i learned that my teacher is an ex-jockey and...wait Jockey is a horse racer yea she used to weigh 98 pounds and she is like 2 inches taller than me craziness how can people not like food. Ok not the point, so i learned that she has broken or torn or dislocated just about every body part or region possible ohh that the Greeks had this thing called the Olympics and what not. Lol NOW for the highlight of le day an culmination of a whole semester, Kentucky is going to pledge Fiji SUH-WHEAT!! So yea funny thing is in our room, two brothers used to live here last year in the same bed area that we do so hopefully we keep tradition alive*crosses fingers. But yea soccer practice was hmmm AWSOME! Lol we played A S S and well siince my juggling is rusty i was the first one to lose, my penalty u may ask. Stand in front of the goal ass in the air and let them take one shot each yea pretty gay but in true Tavera fashion i talked mad shit the whole time with key phrases like " SHITS WIZZZEAK!!" and "YOU GUYS SHOULD BE USED TO HITTING GUYS FROM THE BACK" unfortunately our ace player Jay got me high on my left butt cheek it bounced off due to my buns of steel but it did sting lol. Any way we scrimaged and to my delight, I got my soccer legs back and didnt suck as much ass as i did on Tuesday. I made a few stops though i had like 3 stupid plays go right by me,shit sucked but w/e got saved by the goalie in the end we ended up winning and yea u guessed it 10-1 was the final score. Those guys sucked major ass i guess wearing matching outfits is just gay if u suck lol.<--prolly an accidental pun in there. So now i must shower because i reek of Culo de Camello and then its off to stat world for my first quiz straight A's here i come

i Have class in 5 mins so i must end my amazing 3.75 hour chat con mi bebe and then rush home in order to endure grueling practice. Expect a rant later tonight. :-) plz bear with me. OH! On a brighter note, my fake ID is in the mail :-D